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swordedpast) wrote2012-09-29 10:43 pm
swordedpast) wrote2012-09-29 10:43 pm
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The Embarrassing Ordeal at Ryuudou Temple
SHIROU
...! Let me down, you idiot! What the hell are you thinking!?
ARCHER
I don't know. Just shut up, you idiot! I'll get a headache thinking about how stupid I am if you tell me about it!
SHIROU
Idiot!? You know you're an idiot, and you still call me an idiot!? You idiot!
ARCHER
...! Are you a kid or something!? You can't be helped if you're a kid and stupid! At least pick one, you idiot!
SHIROU
You--just let go of me! I can take care of this myself! I don't need your help!
Archer! Are you listening to me...!?
ARCHER
--I see. Then I guess I don't need to hold back.
SHIROU
[ KICKED ]
Gah--!?
* * *
ARCHER
Rin and I can defeat Caster, but not Berserker. I'll let Caster do as she wishes until she defeats Berserker.
SHIROU
--Don't be ridiculous. Tohsaka won't do such a thing.
ARCHER
You're right. That's why I want Caster to do so as fast as possible. We can't avoid fighting if Rin finds Caster. It would be ideal if Caster can defeat Berserker right before that happens.
I don't know how many people will be sacrificed, but it will be cheap if Berserker can be defeated.
Humans die anyway. It will not change the ultimate result no matter how they die.
SHIROU
......!
ARCHER
Caster's too reserved. She should not only take their magical energy, but their lives as well. It'll be easier for me to fight if everybody in this town dies. My Master's too optimistic. If that happens, I'm sure she'll do anything to win.
SHIROU
Y--
ARCHER
Oh, I think you know Rin's the type that is concerned with formality. She's great as a magus, but she's not dirty enough as a Master.
I wouldn't be this troubled if she would be more like Caster--
SHIROU
You--!
[ PUNCH ]
ARCHER
What are you doing? I thought we were cooperating.
SHIROU
Shut up...! I'm not like you. I can't sacrifice people around me to win...!
ARCHER
I feel the same way, Emiya Shirou. But you cannot save everyone.
For example, the damage will extend beyond this town if Caster obtains the Holy Grail. That goes for Ilyasviel and the other Masters.
As far as I know, you and Rin are the only Masters who will not use the Holy Grail for your own good. Therefore, there will be more victims unless we win the Holy Grail War.
In that case--we will sacrifice the people in this town for our benefit.
It will be exactly as you want if the damage is reduced as a result.
You said you do not want to involve innocent people, right?
Then accept it. Nobody can be saved if you try to save everybody.
* * *
ARCHER
This is it. Since you do not have a reason to fight, die here.
SHIROU
What...? Reason--to fight...?
ARCHER
That's right. It is only hypocrisy for you to fight for someone else and not for yourself. You only wish for peace, and not victory.
--Such a thing does not exist anywhere in this world.
SHIROU
Wh--at?
ARCHER
Farewell. Drown in your ideals and die.
Rin's Dreams
Lecturing Shirou, While Saber Listens
ARCHER
You need a reason to fight. But it cannot be an ideal. If you fight for ideals, the only thing you can save are ideals.
There is no way you can save people.
The reason why one fights is a desire to try to save something.
At the very least, that is the case for you, Emiya Shirou. Isn't that right?
But salvation brought on by others is not a salvation. The only thing that saves a person is their own will and actions.
A salvation brought on by others is like money. Once it is used, it will only go on to someone else.
That is why your ideal is meaningless.
You can certainly fulfill your wish to 'save someone.' But a wish for you to save yourself does not exist. You will embrace a borrowed ideal that is not yours, and you will probably pursue it until you die.
--that's all I wanted to say. There is nothing at the end of helping people. It is a false life that can save neither yourself nor others.
The Confrontation in the Temple
The only calm ones are Archer and I.
...It's not that surprising.
We hated each other from the start.
We opposed each other, unable to get along.
I don't know why, but I just cannot approve of him.
...The reason behind it...
If "that" is really the reason for us not being able to approve of each other...
It is natural for him to want to kill me.
* * *
RIN
Archer, what are you doing?!
The acting's over, right? We beat Caster, so I won't allow you to do anything selfish now...!
ARCHER
Let me...? I do not get it. Why do I have to ask for your permission? You're not my Master or anything.
RIN
Eh...Archer...?
ARCHER
Our contract has ended. I am free now. Do you think I will subject myself to human control?
RIN
No way, Archer...
ARCHER
I will act to achieve my objective.
But it is troublesome to have you around.
I will not let you interfere after I have come this far. Our contract has ended, so the binding of the command spell does not exist anymore.
That is the only reason I sided with Caster. I needed to break the contract to nullify that command spell.
RIN
I thought so--but why, Archer!? Do you still want to kill Shirou...!?
ARCHER
--Yes, I will kill Emiya Shirou with my own hands.
This is the only wish I have after being reduced to a guardian.
SABER
Wh--at?
Archer. Do not tell me you are...
ARCHER
...Yes. You asked me once, right? Whether I had pride as a hero or not.
Of course not. I cannot have such a thing. Only regret fills my mind.
--Saber, I shouldn't have become a hero.
After All Is Revealed: Rin's Internal Monologue
And I recall his dream.
The memory of the guy that was set up as a hero.
The story of a knight whose end came at a place I can't reach.
This hill is his world.
This desolate land is what the man who kept on fighting for others obtained.
I guess he smiled and died in satisfaction in this place.
"--He's seriously stupid."
...That's right. It just makes me mad.
He tried his best, worked hard even though he's an ordinary person, and finally obtained a miracle with his blood.
Then it'll be a lie unless he becomes happy.
If he made many people happy, he should become happier than all of those people combined.
But he did not receive such a reward.
* * *
It's vexing when I think about it.
It's because neither of them is saved.
The one that watches his previous self...
The one that watches his eventual self...
They will both be hurt by the gulf between them.
I know the end of this big idiot who tried to be of help to others.
He became a guardian by choice.
He thought that it would be great if he could keep saving people even after he died.
He could not save people when he was alive because he was powerless. But he believed that he could avert every tragedy as a heroic spirit.
Thinking so, he made a contract with the world, gave his body after his death, and saved a hundred or so people.
He believed he would be able to save more, tens of thousands of people, after his death.
--But such hope was betrayed.
Heroic spirits are summoned only into hell.
They appear only when the world is about to be destroyed by people.
Humans are beings that will perish from their own doings.
So the process of destruction must always be the same.
He was summoned only into these "hells".
In the land of death where the ones he wanted to save were already dead, he killed even more humans.
The boy who stated he just doesn't want to see anyone cry...
...could only see crying humans forever.
There's only one thing I can say.
He has been betrayed by many things.
And in the end, he was betrayed by the only thing he believed in, his ideal.
...That is the only spell given to him.
What is that?
I'm so mad that I want to hit him and scold him.
I, Tohsaka Rin, have never had any hardships in my life.
So I might not have the right to say it, but I believe in working hard and going through pain. It's wrong not to be compensated for your fights.
That's why I'm angry at his uncompensated life, and most of all--I can't leave him be because he ended up cursing his life.
'You're my Servant, so I'm only going to do what I believe is right.
I'm not as loose as Emiya Shirou, but I do have some things I cannot give up.
I won't give it up no matter who's telling me so--'
That's right.
That's why I decided...
That as long as I'm his Master, I will believe in my path like he used to do.
That's about all I can show to him.
That's the only way I can repay him.
It might have been meaningless, but still...
I do it so that Archer, the one who lost his own past, can realize that his life was something he can be proud of--
Rin Is a Terrible Kidnapping Victim
RIN
So. What do you intend to do, Archer?
ARCHER
It's nothing. You're just bait to lure out Emiya Shirou. You should know that.
RIN
...Heh. Shirou would come even if I'm not here. You should know that.
ARCHER
--You're right. But it would be inconvenient if you're there with us. I'll have you stay quiet here until the matter is settled.
RIN
I see. So you will kill Shirou no matter what?
ARCHER
Yes. Such a soft person should die.
RIN
...Heh. I know without being told that Shirou's soft.
But I love that soft part of him. He should be like that. I'm saved by having a guy like him.
But what about you?
You went so far, but you think that holding a selfish ideal is wrong?
You fought over and over for other people, you got betrayed over and over, and you were forced to clean up after them over and over--!
Were you disgusted with humans after that, Archer...!?
At the Climactic Battle Between Emiyas
ARCHER
...I certainly did become a superhero, just like in my ideal.
But all I obtained in the end were regrets. All that was left was death.
I killed and killed and killed.
I killed many people to act on my ideal.
I killed so many that I stopped caring about innocent people, and I saved a thousand times as many as I killed.
--Yes, I don't know how many times I've repeated the cycle.
I fought as often as requested, and I fought with my life in danger whenever I knew there was a conflict. I fought many times. So many times that I can't even remember now.
It can't be helped, right?
No matter who I save, there are always people who will perish. No matter how many conflicts I resolve, new conflicts are always created.
A superhero has to keep existing as long as conflict exists.
That's why I killed.
I trampled on dozens of wishes to save one person. I ignored even more people to save those I trampled over.
I killed scores of people, rescued only those in front of me, and destroyed many more wishes.
I kept being stubborn, saying it will end this time, that everyone would become happy.
--But it never ended.
Conflicts come into my view as long as I'm alive.
It was endless. I didn't dream of a world without conflicts.
I just wanted people in my view not to cry.
My vision expands after I save one.
Ten after one. A hundred after ten. How many was it after a hundred? At that time, I finally realized that Emiya Shirou's ideal was just a convenient fantasy.
* * *
ARCHER
A superhero should save many people, right? That's why I killed. I prayed for no one to die, but I killed one to save many.
I said I would not have anyone sad, but I brought despair to a few in the dark.
And in time, I got used to it. To protect my ideal, I kept going against it.
I only saved the people I tried to save and quickly killed the people who opposed me. I allowed 'someone' to be sacrificed to keep protecting my ideal.
That is the true identity of the hero Emiya.
--See.
Don't you think such a guy should die?
* * *
SABER
...That is meaningless, Archer.
You have already become a guardian. So it is too late. Even if you kill Emiya Shirou, who has yet to become a hero, you yourself will not disappear.
ARCHER
That may be true. But there's still a chance, however small.
Just altering the past might not be enough, but the paradox will be even greater if I am the one to do it.
If the distortion is large enough--a hero called Emiya will disappear here.
And Saber. This is what I've been waiting for. I am not looking for results now.
--I'm just taking my anger out on a kid called Emiya Shirou, the one who will become a clown as a result of his stupid ideal.
* * *
ARCHER
Yes, it's natural for a child to admire his parent. But you went too far.
It would have been fine if you just admired what Emiya Kiritsugu wanted to become.
But he left you a curse at the very end. I do not even need to say it, right? That is everything for you.
A Final Farewell with Rin
...There is no salvation available for this knight.
There is nothing to give him, as he has already died and become a phenomenon.
She nods in spite of that.
She cannot give him anything, so she will give him her best smile.
SHIROU
...! Let me down, you idiot! What the hell are you thinking!?
ARCHER
I don't know. Just shut up, you idiot! I'll get a headache thinking about how stupid I am if you tell me about it!
SHIROU
Idiot!? You know you're an idiot, and you still call me an idiot!? You idiot!
ARCHER
...! Are you a kid or something!? You can't be helped if you're a kid and stupid! At least pick one, you idiot!
SHIROU
You--just let go of me! I can take care of this myself! I don't need your help!
Archer! Are you listening to me...!?
ARCHER
--I see. Then I guess I don't need to hold back.
SHIROU
[ KICKED ]
Gah--!?
* * *
ARCHER
Rin and I can defeat Caster, but not Berserker. I'll let Caster do as she wishes until she defeats Berserker.
SHIROU
--Don't be ridiculous. Tohsaka won't do such a thing.
ARCHER
You're right. That's why I want Caster to do so as fast as possible. We can't avoid fighting if Rin finds Caster. It would be ideal if Caster can defeat Berserker right before that happens.
I don't know how many people will be sacrificed, but it will be cheap if Berserker can be defeated.
Humans die anyway. It will not change the ultimate result no matter how they die.
SHIROU
......!
ARCHER
Caster's too reserved. She should not only take their magical energy, but their lives as well. It'll be easier for me to fight if everybody in this town dies. My Master's too optimistic. If that happens, I'm sure she'll do anything to win.
SHIROU
Y--
ARCHER
Oh, I think you know Rin's the type that is concerned with formality. She's great as a magus, but she's not dirty enough as a Master.
I wouldn't be this troubled if she would be more like Caster--
SHIROU
You--!
[ PUNCH ]
ARCHER
What are you doing? I thought we were cooperating.
SHIROU
Shut up...! I'm not like you. I can't sacrifice people around me to win...!
ARCHER
I feel the same way, Emiya Shirou. But you cannot save everyone.
For example, the damage will extend beyond this town if Caster obtains the Holy Grail. That goes for Ilyasviel and the other Masters.
As far as I know, you and Rin are the only Masters who will not use the Holy Grail for your own good. Therefore, there will be more victims unless we win the Holy Grail War.
In that case--we will sacrifice the people in this town for our benefit.
It will be exactly as you want if the damage is reduced as a result.
You said you do not want to involve innocent people, right?
Then accept it. Nobody can be saved if you try to save everybody.
* * *
ARCHER
This is it. Since you do not have a reason to fight, die here.
SHIROU
What...? Reason--to fight...?
ARCHER
That's right. It is only hypocrisy for you to fight for someone else and not for yourself. You only wish for peace, and not victory.
--Such a thing does not exist anywhere in this world.
SHIROU
Wh--at?
ARCHER
Farewell. Drown in your ideals and die.
Rin's Dreams
Lecturing Shirou, While Saber Listens
ARCHER
You need a reason to fight. But it cannot be an ideal. If you fight for ideals, the only thing you can save are ideals.
There is no way you can save people.
The reason why one fights is a desire to try to save something.
At the very least, that is the case for you, Emiya Shirou. Isn't that right?
But salvation brought on by others is not a salvation. The only thing that saves a person is their own will and actions.
A salvation brought on by others is like money. Once it is used, it will only go on to someone else.
That is why your ideal is meaningless.
You can certainly fulfill your wish to 'save someone.' But a wish for you to save yourself does not exist. You will embrace a borrowed ideal that is not yours, and you will probably pursue it until you die.
--that's all I wanted to say. There is nothing at the end of helping people. It is a false life that can save neither yourself nor others.
The Confrontation in the Temple
The only calm ones are Archer and I.
...It's not that surprising.
We hated each other from the start.
We opposed each other, unable to get along.
I don't know why, but I just cannot approve of him.
...The reason behind it...
If "that" is really the reason for us not being able to approve of each other...
It is natural for him to want to kill me.
* * *
RIN
Archer, what are you doing?!
The acting's over, right? We beat Caster, so I won't allow you to do anything selfish now...!
ARCHER
Let me...? I do not get it. Why do I have to ask for your permission? You're not my Master or anything.
RIN
Eh...Archer...?
ARCHER
Our contract has ended. I am free now. Do you think I will subject myself to human control?
RIN
No way, Archer...
ARCHER
I will act to achieve my objective.
But it is troublesome to have you around.
I will not let you interfere after I have come this far. Our contract has ended, so the binding of the command spell does not exist anymore.
That is the only reason I sided with Caster. I needed to break the contract to nullify that command spell.
RIN
I thought so--but why, Archer!? Do you still want to kill Shirou...!?
ARCHER
--Yes, I will kill Emiya Shirou with my own hands.
This is the only wish I have after being reduced to a guardian.
SABER
Wh--at?
Archer. Do not tell me you are...
ARCHER
...Yes. You asked me once, right? Whether I had pride as a hero or not.
Of course not. I cannot have such a thing. Only regret fills my mind.
--Saber, I shouldn't have become a hero.
After All Is Revealed: Rin's Internal Monologue
And I recall his dream.
The memory of the guy that was set up as a hero.
The story of a knight whose end came at a place I can't reach.
This hill is his world.
This desolate land is what the man who kept on fighting for others obtained.
I guess he smiled and died in satisfaction in this place.
"--He's seriously stupid."
...That's right. It just makes me mad.
He tried his best, worked hard even though he's an ordinary person, and finally obtained a miracle with his blood.
Then it'll be a lie unless he becomes happy.
If he made many people happy, he should become happier than all of those people combined.
But he did not receive such a reward.
* * *
It's vexing when I think about it.
It's because neither of them is saved.
The one that watches his previous self...
The one that watches his eventual self...
They will both be hurt by the gulf between them.
I know the end of this big idiot who tried to be of help to others.
He became a guardian by choice.
He thought that it would be great if he could keep saving people even after he died.
He could not save people when he was alive because he was powerless. But he believed that he could avert every tragedy as a heroic spirit.
Thinking so, he made a contract with the world, gave his body after his death, and saved a hundred or so people.
He believed he would be able to save more, tens of thousands of people, after his death.
--But such hope was betrayed.
Heroic spirits are summoned only into hell.
They appear only when the world is about to be destroyed by people.
Humans are beings that will perish from their own doings.
So the process of destruction must always be the same.
He was summoned only into these "hells".
In the land of death where the ones he wanted to save were already dead, he killed even more humans.
The boy who stated he just doesn't want to see anyone cry...
...could only see crying humans forever.
There's only one thing I can say.
He has been betrayed by many things.
And in the end, he was betrayed by the only thing he believed in, his ideal.
...That is the only spell given to him.
What is that?
I'm so mad that I want to hit him and scold him.
I, Tohsaka Rin, have never had any hardships in my life.
So I might not have the right to say it, but I believe in working hard and going through pain. It's wrong not to be compensated for your fights.
That's why I'm angry at his uncompensated life, and most of all--I can't leave him be because he ended up cursing his life.
'You're my Servant, so I'm only going to do what I believe is right.
I'm not as loose as Emiya Shirou, but I do have some things I cannot give up.
I won't give it up no matter who's telling me so--'
That's right.
That's why I decided...
That as long as I'm his Master, I will believe in my path like he used to do.
That's about all I can show to him.
That's the only way I can repay him.
It might have been meaningless, but still...
I do it so that Archer, the one who lost his own past, can realize that his life was something he can be proud of--
Rin Is a Terrible Kidnapping Victim
RIN
So. What do you intend to do, Archer?
ARCHER
It's nothing. You're just bait to lure out Emiya Shirou. You should know that.
RIN
...Heh. Shirou would come even if I'm not here. You should know that.
ARCHER
--You're right. But it would be inconvenient if you're there with us. I'll have you stay quiet here until the matter is settled.
RIN
I see. So you will kill Shirou no matter what?
ARCHER
Yes. Such a soft person should die.
RIN
...Heh. I know without being told that Shirou's soft.
But I love that soft part of him. He should be like that. I'm saved by having a guy like him.
But what about you?
You went so far, but you think that holding a selfish ideal is wrong?
You fought over and over for other people, you got betrayed over and over, and you were forced to clean up after them over and over--!
Were you disgusted with humans after that, Archer...!?
At the Climactic Battle Between Emiyas
ARCHER
...I certainly did become a superhero, just like in my ideal.
But all I obtained in the end were regrets. All that was left was death.
I killed and killed and killed.
I killed many people to act on my ideal.
I killed so many that I stopped caring about innocent people, and I saved a thousand times as many as I killed.
--Yes, I don't know how many times I've repeated the cycle.
I fought as often as requested, and I fought with my life in danger whenever I knew there was a conflict. I fought many times. So many times that I can't even remember now.
It can't be helped, right?
No matter who I save, there are always people who will perish. No matter how many conflicts I resolve, new conflicts are always created.
A superhero has to keep existing as long as conflict exists.
That's why I killed.
I trampled on dozens of wishes to save one person. I ignored even more people to save those I trampled over.
I killed scores of people, rescued only those in front of me, and destroyed many more wishes.
I kept being stubborn, saying it will end this time, that everyone would become happy.
--But it never ended.
Conflicts come into my view as long as I'm alive.
It was endless. I didn't dream of a world without conflicts.
I just wanted people in my view not to cry.
My vision expands after I save one.
Ten after one. A hundred after ten. How many was it after a hundred? At that time, I finally realized that Emiya Shirou's ideal was just a convenient fantasy.
* * *
ARCHER
A superhero should save many people, right? That's why I killed. I prayed for no one to die, but I killed one to save many.
I said I would not have anyone sad, but I brought despair to a few in the dark.
And in time, I got used to it. To protect my ideal, I kept going against it.
I only saved the people I tried to save and quickly killed the people who opposed me. I allowed 'someone' to be sacrificed to keep protecting my ideal.
That is the true identity of the hero Emiya.
--See.
Don't you think such a guy should die?
* * *
SABER
...That is meaningless, Archer.
You have already become a guardian. So it is too late. Even if you kill Emiya Shirou, who has yet to become a hero, you yourself will not disappear.
ARCHER
That may be true. But there's still a chance, however small.
Just altering the past might not be enough, but the paradox will be even greater if I am the one to do it.
If the distortion is large enough--a hero called Emiya will disappear here.
And Saber. This is what I've been waiting for. I am not looking for results now.
--I'm just taking my anger out on a kid called Emiya Shirou, the one who will become a clown as a result of his stupid ideal.
* * *
ARCHER
Yes, it's natural for a child to admire his parent. But you went too far.
It would have been fine if you just admired what Emiya Kiritsugu wanted to become.
But he left you a curse at the very end. I do not even need to say it, right? That is everything for you.
A Final Farewell with Rin
...There is no salvation available for this knight.
There is nothing to give him, as he has already died and become a phenomenon.
She nods in spite of that.
She cannot give him anything, so she will give him her best smile.